Monday 31 July 2023

A break in the routine

When I started as Director of Engineering at Macmillan, one of my objectives was to build a department which functioned without me. I wanted to be able to pull myself out of the operational day to day, empowering others to own those problems, while I focused on overall direction and wider concerns. This was always an aim rather than a hard goal - similar to the sysadmin end game of a fully automated system, it's something I would like to chase and I think I can get close, but I don't believe I will ever truly achieve.

Over the last year and a bit I've set things up to work this way. I've created core areas of my division, and put someone in charge of each of those spaces. I've empowered them to make decisions and own their successes, and I've carefully worked with each of these leaders to identify and remove weaknesses. There is still a long way to go, but I think we've made a strong start.

Why write about this? Well, I took last week off as leave (booked some time ago) and at the end of the week:

The Boss: How are you doing?

Me: Starting to feel better! After about four days asleep, I finally started to feel human again.

The Boss: Want another week off?

Me: Is this some kind of trap?

It wasn't a trap, so after a quick conversation I decided against looking that gift horse in the mouth and spent half an hour with my assistant going through my diary. The first week off was all planned, so that hadn't been a problem but this second week was a spur-of-the-moment thing. Surely it was going to cause all kinds of problems if I wasn't around?

Nope.

Of the week, there was an hour which absolutely required me and needed rescheduling. Which means ... what? This is the question I've been pondering for a few days. On the one hand, my ground-in desire to be needed and adored took a massive hit. Being basically superfluous is not good for the ego. On the other hand, this is exactly what I've been building towards. The department can survive without me. It can make decisions, move forward, solve problems, etc etc...

We've got a way to go. The wheels most certainly will not stay on the wagon indefinitely and the more forward-planning functions haven't been tested in this short term. Plus, of course, people are covering  some bits of my role and I shouldn't underplay their help. There is still plenty of need for someone in my position to keep things steady and move things forward - I don't think they can make me redundant just yet. However, I'm pretty pleased with the results of this (accidental) test and what it means for changing my day to day when I'm back.

To be clear - I'm not wasting my time. The bits that didn't need rescheduling were parts of the job where I'm providing support or oversight, and direct support for individuals. All this should be done, but I can certainly ask some questions about what happens if I dial it back a bit. That means less oversight, but perhaps we're ready for that? Then I can focus more on the work I'd be doing myself which isn't getting done. However, the nature of the job is such that my work is (supposed to be) much more strategic which naturally has a longer burn. If it's delayed a week, that doesn't create the same kind of problem as operational work stopping. Fortunately, this also means focusing in on the part of the job I particularly enjoy.

So, in summary I am very deliberately in the process of making myself operationally irrelevant and it's time to reboot my focus list. Is this ... is this what success looks like?